Fall Can't come fast enough

Summer needs to come to its conclusion and fast!

Not only because I can't stand the hot weather down here in Miami, but because I look forward to the days where I no longer have to worry about studying for a science class or a psychology class ... or a math class. Speaking of which, I need to contact that counselor here at the school to see if I can go and retake that evaluation I need to take so I can get exempted from the math classes. If all goes well I will be able to substitute those two required math classes for two other courses. I'll be keeping my fingers & toes crossed!

Lately I've been feeling a little strange. I'm not sure whether it's because I actually passed biology, oceanography, and now psychology, or if it's because I am now driving and not necessarily dependent on others in my family to get around to do what I need to do. It'll be a wonderful change to be able to go to the cast party this upcoming December after my show ends.

There are days where I wake up feeling happy-go-lucky and like a million bucks, and then there are others where I feel a little depressed or just in the mood for a good cry. The latter is the mood I am currently feeling, and it isn't so nice.

It's something I can't explain. There is no way I can put it into words, written or verbal, so sometimes I am left with the feeling like I'm about to implode any second. The sad thing about it is that I know I have a family that cares about me yet I don't want to share any of this with them. It's ridiculous to say it but I feel alone sometimes, like 98% of the people that know me don't know the real me.

Well, will ya look at that? I actually wrote down what I was feeling. I guess I CAN express this mystery of a feeling in a written form - at least this is as close as I've gotten to describe it.

Chin up, though, I just need to keep moving forward and try to open myself up a little. The past few weeks I've come to realize I have some major trust issues. I've thought horrible things about the two only real friends I have, and I am now putting in jeopardy possible new friendships by doubting their sincerity.

I'm not doing it on purpose.

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I ain't dead

No updates in a month - how could I?
I've been really busy trying to pass my Oceanography class in the summer term, and guess what? I did! I took the final exam today and got my grade for the class and the test: they were B! I got a B so now I'm finally done with my second science class so I will NEVER have to take another one again. Yippy! (Have I mentioned that I also passed my Biology class this past Spring semester with a B?)

I got my license and I'm already driving my car. I'm still a little iffy about driving to far away places on my own, mainly because I'm scared I might not know how to get back, but in time I am sure I'll get over these jitters. I bought a GPS but even then, I'm still scare of venturing out on my own. One day (soon enough) I am going to wake up tired of this BS and I'm going to force myself to go somewhere so I can get over this.

On a bright note, at least I don't have to walk to and from the train station anymore during hot and rainy weathers!

Any way, I'm going to stop writing. I wanted to make a little update because I've been twittering more than updating the blog. I'm in my office but I need to change to go to the gym (oh yeah, BTW, I've started going to the gym at school).

Next week, the second half of summer begins, which means I start my psychology class again - for the third time - ever since that Nazi failed me for no good reason. Oh my, if I keep it up I should be graduating next May!

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Funny Story ...

So I totally misunderstood when my mom told me that the insurance was 600 something a month. Yes, I REALLY misunderstood.

It is actually 116 a month, which I CAN afford!!!

So yeah, I'm really getting my car, LOL. I'm so happy & relieved about it!

P.S.

Reading this entry and the one before this one, I've noticed I come off as completely Bi-Polar. I'm not, I swear.

P.P.S.

Check out the two new links I added below in my signature, the first one leads to my "official" domain, where you can also view this blog (With a little googling, I managed to add this blog to my webstie!), and the second is my Twitter; you know, so if you want to stalk me and all ..

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Forget the car

The insurance is too expensive. My sister has connections and spoke to put it under my brother's name and even with that is too expensive. I'd be stuck paying 600+ every month for the car. I only make around 400 every month with my job. I have credit cards to pay and bills at home that need paying. How will I be able to pay for the insurance? It's bull shit, so I'm going to tell my sister to re-sale the car. I have to be realistic.

It just sucks that after I got the car I wanted I would have to give it up. I'm not even going to bother getting my license anymore. Fuck that.

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Great Saturday

Despite going to graduation and waiting 3 hours to sing the alma mater with the choir, this Saturday has been fantastic. Why? I'll tell you why.

First, because I saw my grades that were posted today and I got A's in my classes and a frickin' B in my Biology class! YAY!!! This makes me so happy after having failed this class TWICE before (first two times I got an F). A "B" is a MAJOR improvement, if you ask me :)

Second, because I GOT A CAR!!! Yes, you read correctly. Albert got a fucking car and I'm SO happy about that, too! Below is a pic my brother sent me while I was at the graduation.



And it's a PT Cruiser - which I wanted all along because it isn't big nor small, it's just the right size for me. Now I just have to have a little more practice (I really, really need to practice the 3 point turn) and then get my license. I can hardly wait to start driving my car. I'll be able to go to auditions, see my friends' plays when they have it, and all that fun stuff!

I just hope I get over my nerves about driving. Hmm, I'm going to have to invest on a GPS thing so that I won't get lost!(@_@)

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Another Golden Girl death

Bea Arthur passed away earlier this morning. I just read it through Perez Hilton's twitter.


May 13, 1922 - April 25, 2009

I'm so shocked, so disappointed, and so sad.
First it was Sophia, & now Dorothy...

... And then there were two.


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The Show's over

Whoa, the show is finally over. This is both good and bad: Good because I can have some time for myself at last and not have so much stress/workload on my shoulders; and it is bad because I'm sad that it's over at the same time. I really had a lot of fun doing this show with the cast we had this semester. They're all fantastic and made the entire semester fun and made me want to go to rehearsals every day a lot of enthusiasm.

The shows went really well and the audience received it with positive reviews. A lot of us have already been stopped and recognized on campus and it feels pretty nice. It's always cool to feel like a celebrity once in a while ;)

Today the director treated the cast to Chili's and it was DI-LI-SCIOUS! I had these four mini burgers with french fries. I had had a sandwich earlier so I didn't eat two of them so I decided to save those for tomorrow's lunch at work (yummy!).

When I have a chance I will post a video with the photos I took of the show and the after-party, which, by the way, I did attend and had loads of fun at.

In other news, I lost my USB Flash drive last week with my completed novel and the outlines for the sequels and with the new book I was writing for fun that I post on FictionPress. I'm truly devastated about this because that is all of my hard work thrown away. I've looked everywhere, from my room to my office to the theater we were at last week. I googled a pic of the flash drive and added my number to it and gave it to the people in charged of the theater and then I left another copy of it in Lost and Found. I just hope, hope, hope that my cats somehow got it and hid it somewhere after playing with it. That, or I hope a janitor finds it inside the theater and turns it in and that the lady who got my info remembers and calls me. I'll pay WHATEVER it is to get that flash drive back!

I hate to think that someone out there will get my flash drive and have all of my work in their hands.

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Opening Night

Today is the day ...er, night. All the rehearsals and work we've had and done has led to this night. In about 5 hours the show opens and my cast and I will be performing our first show of I Love You, You're Perfect, Now Change to people from all over the school and public.

My feelings right now consist of two: Excitement & fear. I'm fearful because our dress rehearsals haven't gone as smoothly as we would have hoped for. The Teching of the show was off,the costume changes were crazy, and not to forget, the backstage was a hot mess when it came to keeping it organized (The backstage in this theater we're performing in is WAY SMALL and only has curtains separating all of us which means that if we spoke, the audience could hear us). But I'm also excited because I can't wait to show off to the public all of our hard work and the content of this funny musical. People will enjoy and see something in themselves in all these wacky characters from the show, plus it's an awesome show to go to with a date ;)

Someone told the Director and I yesterday that bad rehearsals usually meant great shows, so I'm hoping that is just what happens.

After tonight I will still have Thursday, Friday, and Saturday night shows to perform. This is going to be a hectic week for me because I need to study for the fourth exam I have on Monday for my biology class.

Right now I'm on campus typing this up inside my office at work and I feel really sleepy. I started to eat my lunch but I couldn't because I feel to anxious to eat; the last thing I need is an upset stomach before beginning the show.

Wish me a broken leg ...

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